Sunday, October 09, 2005
i knew i shouldn't have switched on the computer. cause once i do, i will be depressed again. there will always be things that make me depressed. sigh.
3 more papers to go. and then i'm free. i don't care if i'm going to do well or not. i just want to get it over and done with.
if my results are really that bad, then i choose to go back to canada and start another new life. well, maybe i will be happier there. without all kind of things that make me depressed here. i am seriously very curious about how life will be, being happy everyday. and not sitting in a corner of a room and think. thinking about how things could have turned out better.
no. i should let things fall into place nicely. people want to stay but they got to leave. i can stay but i want to leave. oh great. i seriously don't know how to treasure things i have now.
i've decided to let eveything go. i'm not going to try to make things better, cause i know they won't. i'm going to learn how to accept the way things are. and there will be no more orange her. that's for lynnette to read. (:
i shall be happy. i shall take things a day at a time. i shall let everything fall into place nicely. i shall not tempt with fate. and i shall make sure i do what i have just said. oh yes. i shall treasure whatever i have now.
okay. i shall just work hard for these three days. make an effort to do well.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
12:59 AM